Here we go again!

So I was chatting to a lad I met on Tinder. He gave me his number and we were texting a lot, everyday but he didn’t ask me out. Which concerns because sometimes you talk so much before you meet you have nothing left to day in real life. Also it allows for you to built up this chap into some sort of magical Liam Hemsworth/Tom Hiddleston character, which puts a lot of pressure on that first date.

Anyway we met for a first date about 3 weeks after we started talking and non of the above happened. He wasn’t exactly who I was expecting to meet but he was lovely and cute. We had lunch for an hour or so and then he asked if I wanted to get a coffee. Cut to 4 hours later and it was time to finish the date. We had so much to talk, an important part of most relationships. However as we left said date he said “cool well I’ll probably see you around.” I have never gotten friend zoned so quickly! I mean poor guy probably thought 4 hours of talking with me will last a lifetime or perhaps it was the content of the discussion but I thought we both had a good time. I’m not sure what I did wrong but I know I shouldn’t take it personally…

I will miss texting him everyday but what can you do? I guess it’s back to the old drawing board.

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Jumping in

Well well well… where have I been? I’ve been seeing a guy but it’s died already (not him, I didn’t murder him… the relationship has died).

Our first date was nothing out of the ordinary. We went to meet at a bar on a Sunday afternoon and it wasn’t opened, so we went on a bit of a pub crawl until we finally found somewhere open. He was very easy to talk to. He came back to my house, we watched Netflix, we didn’t chill, we made out, it was very nice.

That was 8 weeks ago. It was going well but he had some issues, I had one. I felt like he wasn’t very good at communicating.

Anyway I had to call it after he went awol from some mental health issues, which is so fine, I’m not a monster, I knew this going in and was fine with it but I couldn’t read his mind. Basically after sleeping with someone for a couple of months and talking to them daily it’s not okay to just drop off the face of the planet and also make effort from your mates. I must remember my worth and had to shut it down.

Bit of a kick in the teeth. Did I think he was “the one”? No. Did I like his company? Yes. So feeling a bit lonely and honestly not that interested in dating anyone else right now. We’ll see.

Welp, I fucked up

So the dude from the last post didn’t text me the following week as he said he would. I messaged him and eventually we got onto that he’d be going to a gig with some friends. To me it was a very “I’m just not that into you” response. My housemates said maybe that’s how he sees a 2nd date going and other excuses but I know in my gut, if he wanted to see me, he’d have made it happen. 

Due to a terrible choice in showing the wrong person at work some attention my self confidence hit an all time low on the night of the gig. 

After being pursuaded by my friend to go to see the band (she and her husband came with me). I awkwardly avoided eye contact and never spoke to the guy and went home feeling really embarrassed and ashamed. 

I felt like this dude was too cool for me and if he wanted to see me, he’d have made it happen. I did not feel worthy of him. 

So long story short I’ve acted like a bloody weirdo and am home before 11 on a Friday night feeling very unlovable and thinking I need a break from dating for a while. Dear god, I fucked it!